Wrap

So, the study's over.  It asked me a bunch of questions about how happy I was, what I did, that sort of thing.  A day of living moment-to-moment is finally over.

But today could have been very different.  Based probably on the last digit of my phone number, I was told to live moment to moment.  If I had an even number, I'd likely have been told to live today in such a way that I could look back on it, now, and be happy with it.

I kind of wish I got that one.  It asked me, actually, and I said so in the strong affirmative.

The last hour was kind of dead.  I'm tired, and still sick.  I had some intruding news that didn't help.  I had managed to keep real life out of today until the very end.  Sugar crash like all heck.

But what would I have done if I had spent the whole day living a day I'd have been happy with?

It had certain suggestions, namely, the answers I didn't give.  I had to live for pleasure right now, so prayer and meditation was out; volunteering was out; doing anything really planful was out.  Anything that would pay off tomorrow was out.  Anything that paid off for other people was out.  This was a very selfish day, which meant I ate a lot of mangoes and read some good sci-fi but didn't really grow, or help anybody.  Really, I had a 7/10 on fun, honestly.

It asked me if I'd rather live my whole life happy moment-to-moment, or in a way that it was a happy life looking back on it.  I chose the latter.

Or, I guess, I chose it on the survey.  I'm not sure I have the wisdom, patience, and fortitude to choose it in real life.

This has been quite a day.  Possibly the hardest $5 I've earned in a while, but it's been good.  But it'll be good to get to sleep, and wake up tomorrow, and decide what kind of day it's going to be.

Good night, everybody; try to be happy tomorrow, one way or another.